And I Wonder if I Ever Cross Your Mind

[spnfreak15]

Title: And I Wonder if I Ever Cross Your Mind
Characters: Jensen, Jared, Chris
Pairings: J2
word count: 704, short but sweet.
Summary: Based off of Lady Antebellum's song 'Need You Now', Sad!fic



“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

Jensen sighed raggedly.

“Hey Jay… It’s uh, its Jensen. Its about a quarter after one in the morning… I miss you…and uh, Im really lonely without you. I know your not going to call me back but I guess it just makes me feel better to think that you maybe at least listen to the messages I leave you…. I miss you so much, and I’m sorry.”

Jensen hung up the phone.

“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

“Hey Jared. Its Jensen again. I know I promised I wouldn’t call anymore, but I just lost control… God I need you so badly. I don’t know how I can live without you by my side.... It’s really late, so I guess I’m going to try and sleep. I will always love you… Goodnight.”


“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

“Hi… me again… I found a picture of us together today… made me cry. Uhm, I’m a little drunk, whiskey, you know… God I just miss you so much. I can’t get you off my mind… I’m always wondering if your thinking about me too… You know, sometimes I just stare at the door wishing you would walk through it, but I know you won’t. I miss you Jay.”

“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

“Everyone keeps saying that its unhealthy for me to keep calling you. I know it is, and Im sorry I just cant help it. I need you so bad baby. Im all alone and I need you now. Fuck I miss you… Im so fucking sorry Jay.”

“Jensen?” Chris called, walking into Jensen’s bedroom. It didn’t look like Jensen had moved since it had happened. He was still in the same pajama’s he was in two weeks ago. His room was a mess and Jensen looked like death warmed over.

“Jen, come on. You can’t stay here forever. I know you loved him, but you need to get back on track kid.”

Jensen mumbled something.

“What?”

“You said loved. I still love him Chris. No past tense. It will never be past tense.”

Chris sighed.

“How many messages have you left him? Don’t lie to me either Jen, I know you have.”

Jensen whimpered and looked down.

“All together or just today?”

Chris sighed again. “Get showered and dressed.”

Jensen groaned out “Why?”

Chris just crossed his arms. “Because we are gunna go see him Jen.”

Jensen shook his head. “No, no Chris I can’t.”

Chris just made Jensen get up and get ready anyway. When he was finished, he looked nervous.

“Should…should I bring him something? Flowers?”

Chris smiled. “Yeah Jen, we can get flowers on the way, he would probably like that.”

Jensen got more nervous the closer they got. When Chris pulled in, Jensen didn’t want to get out of the car.

“Come on Jen, you gotta do this.”

Jensen sighed and nodded. He got out of the car and walked across the grass. He stopped when he got to Jared.

“Hey, uhm, Im really sorry I haven’t come to see you yet. I just couldn’t, it hurt to much. Chris dragged me out of the house today though…so I guess this is his doing. I uh, I hope you got my messages. Also, I brought you flowers…I hope you like them. I wanted to say that uhm, that I will always love you, and that I miss you.”

A single tear rolled down Jensen’s cheek as he placed the flowers on the ground in front of the polished stone that read:

Jared Tristan Padalecki
19 July 1982 – 1 December 2010
May Angels Watch Over You.

Comments

[naeddna.livejournal.com]

you broke my heart *sobs* there's an ending i never saw coming.

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

I wanted to warn for it, but I also didn't want to ruin the story <3

thanks for the comment

[aelia1980.livejournal.com]

God, how sad was that... Good it's already the December 2nd, so it didn't really happen. Death!fics always give me the creeps and whenever I read them I somehow expect that something really bad happens to the boys straight away. Crazy, I know but I can't help it.

Anways, sad but sweet. I loved it that Jensen left him messages on his mailbox, hoping that he'll hear them wherever he is. *sniff*

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

I actually wrote this back in April, so the original date on the tombstone was '25 April 2010' but I wanted to bring the date up so it looked more recent.

Thanks for your comment <3

[im-a-fake-421.livejournal.com]

You made my eyes rain. ;_;
But this was amazing, and I love it.

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Im sorry I made you cry, but that was kind of the purpose of the story too...

<3 thank you

Noooo!

[loustat.livejournal.com]

Death fic! I know u said this was going to be a sad fic, but I was so unprepared.

Good job either way 'cause this difinitely touched my heart.

Re: Noooo!

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

I said this already in another comment, I wanted to warn for it, but I didn't want to ruin the story.

<3 Im sorry, and Im glad it touched your heart

[engel82.livejournal.com]

Beautiful and heartbreaking ♥

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much

[orvida.livejournal.com]

I'm with the first commenter, i never saw that one comming. now if you'll excuse me i need my kleenex.O.0

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

*gives you kleenex*

It was supposed to be unexpected <3

thanks for the comment

[deansgirl7107.livejournal.com]

Gosh!!!! This was so sad and heartbreaking *sobs*

It was beautifully sad.

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much, that was what I was going for <3

[write-in-red.livejournal.com]

Wow. I didn't see that one coming. Oh, it was a knife through my heart. Poor Jensen.

The fact that Jared is gone makes the messages Jensen leaves so much more painful... *sniffs*

Very nice.

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

I know <3

thank you for the comment

[bornof-sorrow.livejournal.com]

*cries buckets* in a good way.

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

aww thanks :)

[sandymg.livejournal.com]

Very sad. I missed the sad!fic warning. So, um, yeah. I started suspecting but really was still sucker punched even with that. Well done.

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

Im sorry you missed the warning!

And thanks for the comment, Im glad you liked it.

[aurora999.livejournal.com]

Wow... it's not often I find myself unexpectedly crying.

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

Gosh, what a compliment :D

Thank you <3

[speedcat93.livejournal.com]

That's beautiful and yet so sad :(
Beautiful description, <3 it !

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much :D

[wwwiamasheep.livejournal.com]

Noes!
*sob*

[smash86.livejournal.com]

*sobs*...OK so I just dropped by to PM you and I slipped into this fic...*pouts*...and now I think I truly hate you...in a very I-can't believe-you-made-me-pout- kinda way cause SERIOUSLY how can you cram soooo much damn emotion in so few words!!!!!!!!!

This was awesome...and yeah you killed my Jared and I kinda hate you for that but still...this was fucking awesome!

A pre-quel to come...maybe?!?!

*hugz*
smash

[spnfreak15.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I actually like my emotional writing better cause it gets more of an effect out of people.

I've never actually thought of doing a prequel of this fic. Mostly cause I feel like there wouldnt be to much of a story, I feel like I could take any one shot and say "this was there relationship before"

His death is supposed to be sudden, like maybe a car accident or something, so it wouldnt be a sic!Jared fic or anything.

I dunno, I'll think about it XD

[smash86.livejournal.com]

Don't underestimate yourself..the way you wrote the connection between J2 from Jensen's pov in this fic was powerful enough to warrant a "how they were before" kinda story. Yeah there are heaps of "this was there relationship before" oneshots but a lot of them suck!

*laughs*...I'm just saying...cause you rocked my world with this one!